Well where to start....Friday nothing went as plan. I'm I suprised? NOPE. We were going to color eggs with Brodie and do fun stuff but my husband ended up working late and Brodie never got to bed till 9pm which is late for him, I usually put him down around 7:30pm. Saturday, i was in such a blah mood and just not feeling well. I've been waking up around midnightish feeling like I'm going to be sick but then never get sick and very sweaty. The weather was kind of crazy, started of with snow/freezing rain/to rain and the wind was enough to blow over a tree. Hubby left the house after Bman laid down for a nap and went to do some side work. Never got home till 8:00pm and we were supppose to color eggs and never did. Sunday, the weather was beautiful, we drove out to my mom's for Easter. It's so funny (not really) that I can have such a great day and have it ruined within an hours time.
I wish I could just spill all of my feelings out on here just to have it off my shoulders and get insight from my fellow bloggers but to scared of who could be reading it (family, friends, whatever). My life isn't as happy as I try and want it to be. I am not happly married, I am not happy with my job, I am not happy with myself. Sometimes I don't now which end is up and which is down. I want so badly for things to be different but just don't know where or how to start. Or I do but am just to afriad.
I want to be out there running like I use to but lately I'm just to depressed and I guess I just don't care anymore. I'm so skinny that my cloths hang on me and I HATE it. So running sort of scares me right now b/c I don't want to lose anymore weight. Yes I know I need to go to the doctors. Calling right now and setting up my appoinments.
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